August 3rd, 2025
When will this b (me) have a good day (month)?
It's so hard for me to summarize a month because to me every day is the same and every week is a completely new year. Do you know what i mean? I am always trying to be something different and then going back to exactly who I was. Maybe one day I'll learn to see it as a part of my life instead of a defect. When will you accept yourself, for heaven's sake?
So I am scattered. Let me retrace the stuff I've done (or tried to do) this beautiful month
- enjoying my holidays
- preparing for a public contest that i would not win (but for real, not like those expressions of defeat that people make to sound humble or avoid jinxing it)
- send a message to a colleague who i fear
- send an email to my [REDACTED] who i fear
- get less upset over what i read on twitter
To summarize: I'm a big old chicken. How did I make it into adulthood? Whatever. As always, none of it was that big of a deal and i made it to august almost unscathed. I sent the mail, finally stopped reading comments on the dumb tweets I see on my tl and tried focusing on anything else.
this month's favorites
- oasis coming back: i'm singing "don't know, don't care, all i know is you can't take me there" all day.
- the creep movies: i made such good use of my netflix account this month. i'm not watching the show because i fear i won't like it.
- when the wolf comes home by nat cassidy: i'm not one for monster books (i am childishly against monsters because they're not real, duh) but i really liked this one. nat cassidy might be my favorite author.